Keeping secrets
Posted on April 21st, 2008 in Musings by Christodolus ||
I’ve kept some all my life, and the ones I still hold are worse than the stuff that I have told. Even worse than the one that only one other person not involved knows, and that person doesn’t know it isn’t the worst, or that it never actually bothered me though it was a convenient excuse. I’m not really sorry, of course, of everything I did then, or what I’m doing now. I apologise without regret, recidivism evident in my past and in my present. That’s why I can’t sometimes handle it, you know, and that’s what bothers me: I sometimes feel guilty, and that makes some things not happen.
Guilt is a horrible thing, it’s probably the worst thing you’ll have to live with.